Tuesday, January 23, 2007
gosh
it's been soo long... too long so this is just gonna be a short post.sec sch is lotsa fun. lovin it
cant wait for tmrw cuz im sick right now... couldnt go today
shoot
so anyways... ily everyone!! =]
&hugs;;
- anisa
fallout(boy)10:34 PM
Sunday, December 17, 2006
shitzu!!
kiss this life goodbye... or...7
7
here i lie on my death bed
revisiting the past for what seems to be the last time
i won't be seeing the sun rise and set
it's beautiful rays shine
lighting the earth
7
i shed a tear
then another
the faces of my family staring down on me
my vision's blurred
i can hear my niece's whispers
"daddy, is grandpa gone?"
silence is all there is
my life is almost done
7
in those few final seconds
i asked myself
did i live life to the fullest?
did i live life to satisfaction?
too lethargic
couldn't hold on any longer
i'll never forget everyone's affection
7
someone grabs my hand
holds it tight
i force my eyelids open
and i stare into my daughter's beautiful eyes
7
"dad, don't leave us, not now... please"
but i couldn't speak
my mouth wouldn't budge
but at least
i managed a "goodbye" and "i love you everyone"
my world turned pitch dark
the rest of the journey wouldn't be fun
7
my soul left my body
i gazed at my family
they were crying
i wanted to cry too
but no tears would fall
and i remembered suddenly
i was a ghost
after all
"stupid me"
7
just as i was starting my journey
to the afterlife
something grabbed me
pulling me down
it was a light
shining ever so bright
bringing me back to my lifeless body
telling me it wasn't my time to leave yet
7
i awoke
the faces surrounding me lit up with glee
hugs and kisses were passed all around
i question
how could this be?
7
all i know now
is that a miracle just happened
and now i'm utterly convinced
that God is truly one-of-a-kind
God is the one and only
he made my life rewind
all over again
7
i was given another chance
now i'm not going to waste it
i'm not going to make the mistakes i made before
not this time
i'll keep one foot out of the door
always ready to come back...
7
7
7
nisa
===
cherish your life
dear person
you never know
when it's time
fallout(boy)7:48 AM
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
tired out
i learnt a new word!! thanks Laura!!steaming... ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahah... *shut up anisa!!*
okay whatever... new word. cant tell you what it is... ehehehehehehehehehehe so if you know shhh... keep it zip
=]
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nisa
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die b!tch
DIE!!
fallout(boy)8:30 AM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
psst...
*thinking of an appropriate title but got sick and tired so gave up on it**
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orange
purple
red
pink
brown
yellow
indigo
heliotrope
gold
magenta
lilac
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psst let me tell you a secret
between nobody but you and me
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i'm being stupid
x-x
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nisa
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stupidity isn't
the end
of the world
fallout(boy)4:08 AM
Saturday, December 09, 2006
you didn't say goodbye...
i'm sorry i didn't say goodbye...
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i left you forever mummy
without any last words to say
i can feel your heart still frozen stiff
since that fateful and tragic day
*
now i'm telling you what i would have done
if i was ever given the chance
i would have said goodbye to everyone
or at least have one last glance
*
it seems that destiny has decided my fate
that i am the one to go
my death came so unexpectedly
must have been awful when you had to know
*
on my behalf could you please tell daddy
that i love him more than the world
tell him that i'll forever be
his own "Daddy's Little Girl"
*
then, tell big brother that i'll love him forever
cause he's the one who's been there for me
he's defended me when i faced the music
how much he means to me; no one can see
*
let little sister know that i love her more than she thought
and that i'm sorry if i've treated her badly
she's the only one left to make her dreams reality
but i can't be with her now; sadly
*
tell all aunts and uncles and cousins
that i'll miss their warmth so much
they were the backbone supporting me everywhere
i'll never forget their loving touch
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finally, please let grandma know
that she's the one i fully look up to
i'll love her for eternity and more
without her what would i ever do?
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grandpa wants to clearly state
that he'll take care of me here up above
grandma; he misses you ever so much
he can't seem to measure for you his love
*
up here in the land of beauty and wonder
grandpa and i will be waiting for you
not only you, mummy, but for all the others too
we'll greet everyone with arms open; that's true
*
i'm sorry mummy once again
that i didn't manage to say goodbye
how i wish time would stand still for me
so you didn't have to break down and cry
*
this is my final message to you
i'm trying my best not to shed a tear
i just want you and everyone to know
no matter how long it takes i'll be waiting right here...
*
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nisa
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crying her
eyes out
fallout(boy)11:20 PM
gone
christmas is cancelled*
woke up
in the middle of the night
the air smelt different
somebody turned off the lights
it's that time of year
yet again
but nothing will change
i'll still feel the pain
santa won't come
you won't be there
all alone
that's all i'll be
slowly dying
can't you see?
no love
no hate
so what feelings are there to hold?
look around
the room's bare
i'm feeling cold
the walls
white-washed
not the colours of festivity
they're closing in on me
my hands are shaking
won't you hold them tight
make it stop?
no answer
the rain starts falling
drop by drop
yet another day passes by
i still can't seem to fly
to another place
another life
another time
without all this strife
saviour come to my rescue
i'm yearning for you
you still don't come
could this be true?
it finally arrives
wonderful christmas you've come
but why do i still feel sad?
why do i still feel glum?
i stand alone
under the mistletoe
though it's days of sheer bliss
i'll have no one at all
no one to kiss...
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nisa
===
a sad sad
christmas
fallout(boy)3:43 AM
gone
christmas is cancelled*
woke up
in the middle of the night
the air smelt different
somebody turned off the lights
it's that time of year
yet again
but nothing will change
i'll still feel the pain
santa won't come
you won't be there
all alone
that's all i'll be
slowly dying
can't you see?
no love
no hate
so what feelings are there to hold?
look around
the room's bare
i'm feeling cold
the walls
white-washed
not the colours of festivity
they're closing in on me
my hands are shaking
won't you hold them tight
make it stop?
no answer
the rain starts falling
drop by drop
yet another day passes by
i still can't seem to fly
to another place
another life
another time
without all this strife
saviour come to my rescue
i'm yearning for you
you still don't come
could this be true?
it finally arrives
wonderful christmas you've come
but why do i still feel sad?
why do i still feel glum?
i stand alone
under the mistletoe
though it's days of sheer bliss
i'll have no one at all
no one to kiss...
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nisa
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a sad sad
christmas
fallout(boy)3:43 AM
Friday, December 08, 2006
my mind's fucked up
this mind is fxcked-up...
*
i can't even think straight
every single thing i think now is about you
just you
yeah you
nobody else
cause there's something about you
this special aura
engulfing me in it's wrath
i can't seem to break free
*
no this isn't a stupid poem
i got no time for that right now
no time for anything else
except you
can't you see
it's a cold world out there
colder than you think
but only one person keeps me warm
yeah
you know who it is
*
shut up
don't act foolish for once
can't the world just keep mum for a moment
to let me think this through
why do i keep thinking of you?
there's so many others out there
something's up
i think it's my mind
trying to play tricks on me
yeah
my mind is fxcked-up
*
why do i hallucinate?
dream?
aspire?
reach out?
for air
cause there's nothing
nothing there at all
it's just bare
no chances to take
no promises to make
*
i'm wasting my time
obsessing over you
i'm stressing more
tensions are high
but i know i can't live without this
i've gotten accustomed to it
so how am i to let go?
you tell me what i should do
or why did i even start obsessing over you
*
don't say a word
hush now
keep still
this world's not big enough for the both of us
so i've sacrificed my life
i'm going
leaving
you're not shedding a tear of remorse
for what you've turned me into
leave this life
and everything that beholds it
for you i'd do that
so
would you do the same for me?
*
no...
*
guessed so
thanks a lot
for helping me out
though it didn't do anything
but turn my life into dust
so i'm saying goodbye
you've finally turned 'round
but it's too late
i'm long gone
maybe you should have cried faster
next time
or will there even be
a next time...
*
nisa
===
you filth
turned me into this
MONSTER
fallout(boy)10:33 AM
Thursday, December 07, 2006
dear headache, SCREW YOU!!
Dear Headache...SCREW YOU!! (^_^)
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woke up today
my head felt heavy
mom said
wake up you sleepy-head
time to get out of bed
what were you doing last night?
I said
there was nothing in the fridge
went out to get a bite
mom sighs
probably disappointed in me
as you may know
I lied about going out
as with everything else I've lied about
the truth is
I stayed up till late
and this isn't the only day
guess I sticked with my plans
to have everything my way
but in the end
I got this annoying headache
I guess
it was stupid of me to sleep at 3 in the morning
so to put an end to this unecessary yawning
I'll be a good girl
go to sleep at ten instead
no more worrying
and thinking of what's a head
wait...
*
what
is
a
head?...
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AHAHAHAHAHA okay it's done... AHAHAHAHA... I dunno I'll just keep laughing all day. AND if you're asking, NO that "a head" thingy wasn't a typing error. =]]]
you're welcome
you're just jealous
and have a good shat...
fallout(boy)11:38 PM
it's that little one's birthday...
It's that little one's birthday...*
Hey everybody!! Yepp yepp today's my little baby brother (Adil)'s birthday! Just turned 2.
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Yeah it's the Terrible Two again... Guess I'll be able to handle him better after lots of grueling experience from keeping an eye on my sister. Haha
XPPP
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Oh no, the doorbell just rang. For real. And I'm wondering who it is but I'm not going to answer it. Being evil, as always haha.
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So today I have an imense headache. Feeling drowsy. Going to write a poem on that ahahahahahahah... Yeah.... No seriously... For real!! Okay fine don't believe me then just so you see stupid conscience... SCREW YOU!!
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Ahh Christmas is coming!! Go listen to Yule Shoot Your Eye Out by Fall Out Boy now!! =]]]]
It's fkcing amazing... I <3>
=]]]
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<33333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333.......>
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That was random.
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That too...
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Okay so, I hope this headache goes away and doesn't turn into a migrane which is the least thing I want on someone's birthday...
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Maybe I should stop forcing myself to sleep at 3am everyday... Maybe... But I won't stop =P
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Okay everyone!! Have fun today and enjoy life!! You never know when Death come's up to you and says "Ready, you might go, you never know how..."
=DDD
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Nisa
Merry Christmas,
I could care less...
that's him...
v
fallout(boy)11:11 PM
kiss him, kiss him...
what are you waiting for, kiss her, kiss her - Fall Out Boy
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Yeah!! Tomorrow's my baby brother's big day. Haha. I'm still bored. Can't wait for school to start again. I'm still thinking of what to write for the Christmas poem... Urgh can't think. Music's too loud. XP
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Wow. I didn't really know this but this purple and that orange go really well together. Cool. Random. Hey Laura, if you're reading this. Cause only you and me understand randomness well. AHAHAHA
XPPPP
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Ok I think I got an idea on the poem. Don't laugh at me if it's stupid or whatever hahaha. BE posting it up once I've finished. Maybe tomorrow. Right now I want to go to sleep again. Stayed up till 6am watching Manchester United face-off with Benfica. AND MAN U WON!! Woopee so feeling ecsthatic about that. Lol.
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Was it Santa or Mrs. Claus who laid an egg??... Oh well let me go check.
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Ok ok ok enough of that. Now I'm off to do lots of thinking on why Fall Out Boy's so amazing. Bye!!
*
Nisa
fobsessed for life!!